What if creation is never good enough? Through you I have realized that I had been relaxing, allowing and creating all along, I just didn't notice it. But the creation is never good enough. It recently hit me that I create the scenario I always want. For instance, I had a smart, beautiful wife, home, car, a non-physical entity that answered the questions I always wondered about but discovered that my creation, like always was not good enough, I wanted more. So I divorce the wife, find a smarter, almost perfect person to spend time with and I am beginning to feel I now want better than her and the relationship has really just begun; I am tired of my home and car and want something better; the non-physical entity that answers the questions I desire and hits the nail on the head everytime...well now I want is detailed, specific, never said in the history of mankind answers everytime because the general ones that satisfy me aren't good enough anymore. Nothing is every good enough when I create it and every since I first started listening to you, its like in hyper drive because I realize I am in control. I dont fear death, life, the mysterious spooky group that runs the world and if I want something I literally get it because I expect it much like your light switch analogy.

If the fastest path to my joy changes every two days because once I find it I desire something even more joyful, which combined with the creation aspect leads to frustration, how do I stabilize the experience?

The blessing was bringing you into my experience, the curse is that you made me realize who I AM...

the Human condition that sets the sceen and stage productions?

Consider, if you could somehow cease and desist thinking, or thought itself, what would be created and how? Great fun!